Thursday, April 23, 2009

Reflections on surgery…

dharmacharya-2 In light of the rather extensive reconstructive surgery, which doctors are considering a "calculated risk", I thought I would take this opportunity to address a common question asked of me by those who are "concerned". Now I am not talking about the kind of concern that hopes the risks associated with the procedure are not manifested, or those who are concerned about the couple weeks of even more intense pain that may follow. What I mean are those who are concerned that my belief system doesn't include the kinds of superstitions and fundamentalism that bring them comfort.

You can be sure that among those who love me most dearly, are a number of folks who simply cannot conceive of why I continue not to accept their idea of a personal god or saviour... and why I don't find such things important or comforting. "What if God gets mad at him for not believing, and lets him die, and he will never be saved?" they wonder, and chat among themselves. "Oh, I am so worried that he's turned his back on God and religion..." others whisper, "it just breaks my heart."

What these genuinely warm, wonderful and loving individuals don't comprehend is that my philosophy and spirituality has changed very little, aside from deepening, from the time I was fifteen or sixteen. Following a spiritual experience or what commonly gets labelled as a "vision" (waking dream) on the Feast of the Pascha, in 1979, I suddenly realised that all of the religious figures were metaphors for the Ground of Being... and that you and I are too.

The Greek word, eucharistia, means thanksgiving. I have always found my spirituality to be a eucharistically-centred spirituality. True peace and gratitude are not the feelings of "comfort" that people get from clinging to their idea of the Great Cosmic Babysitter or Yahweh the Punishing Nanny concepts. True spiritual peace -- an unshakable calm, emptiness, is a way of interpreting the world. For an authentic follower of the Buddha or the Christ, there is a simple awareness that although it is difficult to change the world, it is always possible to change the way we perceive the world. By starting with perception, we can transform entire universes. And that awareness makes it virtually impossible to move from a base of shear gratitude.

For this reason, I don't feel the need to turn my understanding of the Void, or the Stillness, as the mystics and saints have called it, into a caricature... a reflection of the hostilities, intolerance, selfishness and insecurities we experience as individuals, and then elevate (egotistically) as our "god". Instead, I live in the only moment any of us ever has... right here, right now... and try to touch the wonders that exist within and without, realising that those wonders are all part of the cosmic dream, and I am both the dreamer and the dream itself.

When we don't place such artificial importance on ourselves, there is no need for that "safety net" that believes God or Goddess will save you, us, them, and punish the ones who don't walk the same path. In fact, if there were a God that resembled the God of any of the Abrahamic religions, I would not want to be anywhere near it, because frankly, I would have to consider that God, according to the descriptions, to be a real asshole!

Instead, I am content with the awareness that what the primitive minds conceive as "God" is actually Love, and I believe in Love. Love allows me to cultivate a mind that neither clings nor repels, and thereby allows me to move through the experiences of happiness and pain, accomplishment and failure, success and frustration, without losing my balance for long.

So instead of worrying whether I will survive the 4-6 hours of surgery, I am more content simply sitting with the awareness of how fortunate I am to have the love of my parents, my family (both biological and extended), an incredible companion and partner, good friends, wonderful students and thousands of readers, who desire the best for me in any given moment. And of those folks, rather than wringing your hands and hearts on Monday, and instead of worrying about why I don't embrace your particular religious beliefs, do something that will really help me to "make it"...

Do something nice for someone on Monday, for no reason at all. That kindness will transform the world. And healing is always easier in a more loving environment.

I will be fine, no matter what the outcome. And I will go into surgery with a heart filled with love for each of you, and all sentient beings, truly believing that whatever pains I endure can be offered as a substitution for the pains of others. Even if nothing more than an exercise in compassion and awareness, I believe it too, will help transform the world.



Namasté!

-- dharmacharya gurudas sunyatananda

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Saturday, April 18, 2009

Dharma Talk: When appearances bite you in the ass

ExcessBaggageLogo_op_800x618 Over the course of the past few weeks, we’ve lightly bantered about over the belief some of my students and monks hold that I should return to wearing either a Franciscan, Camaldolese or Buddhist monastic habit, because of my “position” in the Order. They would like their spiritual leader to be recognised as such, and feel that my being most commonly seen in jeans and a t-shirt diminishes the perception of others, who might take our spiritual paths more seriously.

They also believe that I should take a softer “public” approach on social justice and religious accountability issues, so that the former benefactors, who have essentially financially destroyed our community in the past four years, might change their views and begin supporting us again.

I’ll be the first to admit that the attire I am personally most physically comfortable, since I am not a big fan of clothing in general, wearing my Benedictine (Camaldolese) habit. But the fact is that having lost a considerable amount of weight, due to my medical condition, the one I have is too big, and being white, it was more practical in a traditional monastic setting. My work takes me out on the streets too often now, so white ends up filthy by the end of a single day.

But there is another reason I resist wearing it… and that reason is more important to me…

It’s all about fighting against appearances. I dislike and disapprove of the way in which we treat those in religious or spiritual garb “better” than we treat the guy in “grunge-wear” from the local biker’s club. My message is post-denominational and post-religious… so wearing religious attire can be counter productive in most settings.

This week, after making the decision to disassociate myself from a self-described Buddhist discussion group, in which I found far too many armchair-gurus, and not enough substantial conversation going on; and in which I was tired of having to deal with the vitriolic bullshit of one woman, who felt it was disgraceful “fence-sitting” for me to consider myself a successor to the apostles, a Franciscan and a Buddhist monk/lama, I began to consider addressing our judgmentalism based on appearances.

Appearances get us in trouble. Last week, we talked about the legendary resurrection, and how the ultimate message, I believe, was that death could not kill the love that became incarnate in the Christ, and which lives on in his disciples. In the Buddhist tradition, although Buddha Sakyamuni no longer appears to be living corporeally, the Buddha-Mind (Christ-Consciousness) lives on in the Sangha.

Last Saturday night, hundreds of thousands of Britons tuned-in to watch the programme that gave way to the U.S. hit, American Idol, and watched incredulously, as an apparently frumpy, physically unattractive woman told the judges, she wanted to become a professional singer.

Watch the video clip below, and then consider how you and I allow appearances to cause us to forget that our perceptions are nearly always mistaken, and little more than our opinions and judgments. Consider what you can do to finally allow for a new awareness to awaken in you… a Divine Mercy, if you will… a mindfulness of the Oneness that is the Ultimate Reality, and awareness of our responsibility to show compassion, support and kindness toward every being.

I was deeply moved by this video clip, and applaud Susan Boyle for being a remarkable teacher… and encourage you to watch what happens to the judges throughout the clip. It’s a sight we don’t often see in the U.S. version, but even Simon Cowell clearly shows a depth of emotion that is stirring and humbling.

 

Click here to watch the video clip (opens in a new window).



-- Dr. F. Gianmichael Salvato

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Thursday, April 9, 2009

Dharma Reflection – Good Friday & the Bodhisattva Ideal

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Today is the most solemn observance in the Catholic tradition, whose mythology and scripture tells the heart-wrenching story of the Suffering Servant, the Great Rabbi Jesus, whose love for humanity compelled him to accept the suffering and torture described in the texts, for the "remission of sins".

Far too often, people become distracted by the extremes -- either focusing on a mistaken and literalist interpretation of the story, imagining that these things, for which there is no credible historic evidence, actually occurred; or focusing entirely on the absurdity of those who believe such myths to be literally true... in either case, missing the point of these days of sacred contemplation.

In the Satasáhasriká Prajñapáramitá, we learn that a true Bodhisattva shows his or her compassion by choosing to suffer the pains, torments and passions... even the agony of death, so that he or she might lead all beings to perfect Enlightenment. Such a person, we are told, becomes consumed with grief over the suffering he or she sees among others, and desires to take such suffering upon himself or herself, for the sake of freeing others... literally, saving them, from torment.

This description could perfectly describe the two central figures of the Passion narrative of the Christian faith: Jesus and his Blessed Mother, Mary.

Both Jesus (Rav Yeshua) and his Mother (Miriam) willingly surrender themselves to great suffering -- both physical and emotional -- out of an overwhelming sense of longing to free the world of suffering and death for innumerable æons.

For the Catholic-Buddhist, the story of Good Friday and Easter can be seen through the lens of the ancient mystery traditions, which recognise the stories as a ways to fill in the gaps science leaves with symbolism and myth, for the purpose of illustrating the importance of the gaps themselves -- those empty spaces in which ultimate truth (Emptiness) exists.

The apostle wrote that his desire was "to decrease, so that the Christ Consciousness in him could increase". This consciousness of which he speaks is the awareness or awakening that Buddhists call "Enlightenment". It is an awareness of the ineffable, ungraspable, groundless reality, which the primitives called "God", and which the mystics and Desert Fathers knew could never be named or quanitified.

For me, the Liturgy of Holy Thursday, in which we strip the altar of its linens, its candles and empty the tabernacle of the sacramental presence that usually resides there, has always been a powerful and emotional symbolism. I've always returned, as was the case of the elders (episkopi) in the early Jesus Movement, to sit in silent contemplation in that empty church... and turned my awareness to the profound experience of that emptiness.

The period of time from that Paschal meal that Rav Yeshua would have shared with his disciples and their families... during which his Mother must have been keenly aware that something was troubling Her beloved son... bring a mindfulness that there is a pain inherent in being alive. We read about the "agony in the garden", and find the tremendous sadness and agony Christ experienced, when contemplating the suffering of others, and during which he seems to have resolved to identify solely with that sovereign value in the identification of one's own suffering with the sufferings of all beings.

This ethic of sacrificial compassion is at the heart of the Bodhisattva ideal. And I find meaning in contemplating not only the staid story of Rav Yeshua and his passion and death, but the frequently overlooked, and equally courageous role of the co-redemptrix, Mary, his Mother... who becomes, by adoption, the Mother of Us All. For a mother to stand by and watch her child suffer must be a terrible thing. I know that when my late partner was dying, who for the last year of his life, was more like my child than my lover, it was one of the most emotionally heartbreaking experiences I had ever known. Yet to compound that experience of watching a loved one die with watching them die a savage and brutal death is even more extreme.

A Mother, barely older than Her Child, stands on the step, watching as Her Son is ridiculed, beaten by a crowd, tortured and hanged upon a tree. These words seem inconceivable, and we imagine that is because they are part of an ancient legend... a sacred myth... and that is why we cannot begin to understand. But those words were not a description of our Blessed Mother at Calvary... they were the words used to describe the experiences of a 23 year old Black woman, in Selma, Alabama, who watched her son being beaten and hanged by a mob of racist terrorists in 1962.

Suddenly, when the context changes, our hearts begin to feel the terror, the agony and the grief.

We reflect on the meanings of the story... on the meaning of Pilate, the representative of the "great civilisation", which was threatened by the radical message of inclusion and equanimity being preached by this revolutionary Rabbi of Love. "What is truth," Civilisation (in the person of Pilate) asks of the Anointed One. In the end, Civilisation washes its hands of the responsibility to uphold social justice.

Then there are the high priests... the ones charged with upholding truth and who became caught up in the literalist interpretation, the ritiualistic practice, and the lust for power and authority that comes in every institutionalisation of spirituality. In the end, they too were threatened by the suggestion that compassion calls us to erase the lines the priests had drawn in the sand, dividing "us" from "them"... "pure" from "ritually unclean".

Afraid that doing the "right thing" might upset the status quo (Rome), the few priests with a conscience, retreated in silence, and let fear and manipulation win, just as we find those dedicated and compassionate priests in the Roman Church often doing, in the shadow of the oppression, injustice and intolerance their institutional dogma puts forward. They know that women, gay and lesbian persons, and people from other faiths are being dogmatically marginalised by their religion, and in their hearts, they do not embrace such intolerant ideas... but they do nothing about it... and like the Pharisees, stand by in silence, and watch the torture unfold.

Now there was, at the time of Rav Yeshua, a tradition during Pesach (Passover), during which every observant Jew would bring a lamb or a goat to the Temple for ritual slaughter. The priests would first bleed out the lamb (poorer families would use a goat), and then offer the first portion sacrificially to their vengeful and punitive god, Yahweh. The families would not be permitted into the Holy of Holies, and would have to stand in a waiting area (actually only the men were even permitted to stand in this section). So a name tag was placed around the necks of the animals to be sacrificed.

As we read the story of the Passion, we find that the Jewish priests were horrified and appear angry, when they looked up at the Cross, and see the sign Pilate had inscribed in Latin, Hebrew and Greek.

Many are familiar with the inscription that is often seen on crucifixes today, with the Roman "INRI" appearing above the head of the Corpus.

This sign would have actually contained the entire message "IESVS NAZARENVS REX IVDAEORVM" -- meaning "Jesus the Nazarean, and King of the Jews" (contrary to the misinterpretation of many later scriptural texts, which claim it said "Jesus of Nazareth King of the Jews", since there was no such place as Nazareth at the time of Jesus' birth. The Nazarenes were a sect of Dharma adherents, who were trained in the healing arts by the Therapeutae -- Alexandrian monks, trained as disciples of the Tibetan Buddhists). Back to the story...

The Pharisees subscribed to a metaphysical method of looking at all written words in Hebrew as containing a literal meaning, and then a numeralogical meaning, followed by a "hidden" Kabbalistic meaning, which was derived from taking the first initial of every word in a passage, and looking for symbolism or words therein.

When the words "IESVS NAZARENVS REX IVDAEORVM" are translated into Hebrew, the first initials of the words would have been "YHVH".

There, before the eyes of those who were charged with the responsibility to protect the truth, was a sacrificial lamb... above whose head was his "family name" the name of their mythical god, Yahweh, whose name in Hebrew is "YHVH".

On a deeper level, there were other more ancient assignations, dating back to the crucifixion myths that pre-date the plagiarised version found in the Bible, in which those letters mean, "IGNE NATVRA RENOVATVR INTEGRA" -- "By fire is restored purity".

Thus we see in the story of Good Friday the Bodhisattva Path -- which represents the inner fire of the spirit, regenerates and resurrects Love and Life... much like the sun regenerates the earth.

Regardless of your personal spiritual path, I invite you to consider and contemplate this exemplary story of the Bodhisattva Christ (Aviloketesvara) ... and the Bodhisattva Mary (Kuan Yin).

Consider a love so great, that after becoming incarnate, was moved so deeply by the suffering of this world and others, that he gave his life in exchange (the Tibetan practice of tonglen) for the freedom of others. Each day, we too have an opportunity to take on the suffering of others, symbolically and in small ways, to alleviate the suffering they experience in some meaningful way.

We can let the desire for that pack of cigarettes die in us, so that the $5 can feed that homeless woman we pass on our way home from work. We can let the habit of Happy Hour with our friends die so that we can spend those couple hours visiting those in the coutnry home or cancer ward.

We can allow the need to be right die, and simply say, "I'm sorry", next time our wife or husband is bitching about something stupid.

And I'll promise you this, my friends... three days later, you will discover that there has been something in you that is indeed "raised up"... restored to life... reinvigorated.

I would like to conclude this reflection by sharing with all of you the grateful news we received today, that the neurologist is certain that whatever the disabling neurological condition is that caused my accident seventeen months ago, and which continues to cause some deterioration in my health is *not* Parkinson's Disease or ALS. For this I am thankful and relieved.

We are likewise thankful that the generous help from eleven of our readers allowed us to pay last month's rent, and avoid being evicted, and that this month we are only $375 short of having the money we need for the electric, phone and rent. The District Attorney is at work at trying to get the man who caused these problems for us to make restitution, and tell us that within the next 60 days they will have resolved the problem. So progress is being made!

And our company -- both the legal services division (http://prepaidlegal.comhub/fgsalvato) and the financial services company that I started (http://peoplesfinancialnetwork.com) are beginning to pick up enough momentum to start showing a profit 6-8 weeks from now!

For all of these things I am grateful... but most of all, for the times in my life when each of you has made sacrifices, in the form of a prayer, a smile, a donation or a kind word... and alleviated the pain and suffering of this simple monk.

May I find the strength, courage and awareness to do the same for you always!

In the Essence of the Paschal Experience,



Namasté!

-- dharmacharya gurudas sunyatananda

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Sunday, April 5, 2009

Lenten Dharma Reflection – Palm Sunday

palm sunday As we enter into the height of the Lenten Season, our focus this week is on what has come to be known as the "Palm Sunday narrative". In this story, Jesus makes his entry into Jerusalem, through the city's famous Eastern Gate, riding upon a donkey. He is greeted by throngs of his followers, who wave palm branches and olive branches, shouting, "Hosannah!"

We might miss some of the symbolism in this story, which is important to understanding the reason behind it. This is a story of radically redefined sovereignty. At the same time that Jesus entered into Jerusalem through the Eastern Gate, at the beginning of Passover, Pontius Pilate, the Roman governor would have been entering the city through the Western Gate. Pilate, a representative of Caesar, would have been accompanied by his soldiers and officials, all on horses, and dressed in the refinery of the Roman dignitaries. Jesus, enters on a donkey, surrounded by his followers and supporters... a dramatically different kind of army.

Jesus' message was a message of love. He redefined what the superstitious people imagined to be some sort of personal, jealous, vengeful and human-like being, they referred to as their God, instead telling them that what they imagined to be "God" is really Love.

The sovereignty embodied by Jesus was not the kind of "kingship" we saw in the courts of Caesar or Herod... it wasn't the kind of "messianic kingship" the Jews were waiting for... it was the kind of sovereignty Jesus expressed, when he taught, "The sovereignty of the Divine is within you."

In the coming week, we will reflect on a story of tremendous pain... the mythical story of the arrest, torture and crucifixion of the Great Teacher, the Christ. We will talk about suffering, pain and the extraordinary way in which we find the Christ and His Mother overcoming and transcending suffering.

I was reminded of a book I read not long ago, called, "An Interrupted Life: the Diaries of Etty Hillesum". Etty Hillesum was a Dutch Jew, who was killed at Auschwitz, in 1943, when she was only 29 years old. Among the persecutions she suffered, Etty was accused of being a Christian, because her sentiments did not seem to reflect the traditional wisdom of the Jewish people.

Etty Hillesum was unfazed by these accusations, writing in her diary:

"All I wanted to say is this. The misery here is quite terrible, and yet, late at night... I often walk with a spring in my step along the barbed wire, and then time and again, it soars straight from my heart... like some elementary force -- the feeling that life is glorious and magnificent, and that one day, we shall be building a whole new world. Against every new outrage and every fresh horror, we shall put up one more piece of love and goodness."

These are the words of a Bodhisattva. Like the story of Etty Hillesum, and the Chrisitian narrative of Holy Week, we are challenged to move through those "fresh horrors" of our time... the accusations that are levied against us... the dangers that await us from the intolerant and hateful... and to emerge having raised up one more piece of love and goodness.

Our reflection as we enter into a period of silent contemplation, until Holy Thursday, comes from the gospel attributed to John:

Then Jesus told them, “You are going to have the light just a little while longer. Walk while you have the light, before darkness overtakes you. The man who walks in the dark does not know where he is going. Put your trust in the light while you have it, so that you may become sons of light.” When he had finished speaking, Jesus left and hid himself from them."  - John  12:12-36

Learning to find the truth hidden and sometimes obscured by our limited comprehension of ancient myths and sacred texts is an example of being lost without the light. We know that the gospel story is a story of Love becoming incarnate in the person of the Christ... something that occurs in each and every one of us. We need not seek external light, but instead, remember how to radiate the light that we are.

We are the light of the world.

Namasté!

-- dharmacharya gurudas sunyatananda

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